7 Tips for Closeted Atheist Teenagers

Over the years, I have received a lot of emails and messages from other closeted atheists asking for advice. Most of these messages have been from atheists in high school, wondering what to do in regards to having this secret among Christian friends, parents, and church members. I decided that compiling my advice together could hopefully prove helpful for at least one of my younger readers.

1. Weigh your options

If you feel like you’re caught between a rock and a hard place, compartmentalize all of your options, complete with pro-con lists. This would commonly be used for people that don’t know if they should come out to their friends or family for fear of losing them. Before making any choices, I suggest listing out what would happen if you do come out now, and what would happen if you don’t; often, even third or fourth options will emerge as well.

2. Wait

If you’re financially dependent on your parents, which could mean living with them while attending middle or high school, or relying on them for college tuition, it is probably best to wait until you’re on your own. I had a lot of my own issues with this, because waiting until I had moved out was eating me up inside, and as I came out to my mom several months ago and am still living at home for a couple more weeks, you can see that it didn’t end up working for me anyways. Even if you hate church, and you want to be able to be your true self, if there’s any chance that being your true self could end you up on the streets, it’s probably not a good idea.

3. Make the wait bearable

When I was still attending church, even while writing for this blog, I found a couple ways to make the wait less miserable. During every bible study and sermon, I would take “sermon notes” on the absolutely wild things that were said by the pastor or vicar. It served almost as a log of how many crazy things I could hear in a single morning. After reading through it just now, the whole thing is pretty funny.

4. Test the waters

Oftentimes, even if you are waiting to tell your parents until you’re older, you might be dying to know how they would respond if they found out you’re an atheist. If you don’t want to completely come out, try telling them that you learned that one of your classmates is an atheist. See how they react to that and go from there.

5. Drop hints

You can also partially come out in such a way that, when and if the day does come, your atheism is less of a surprise. If there’s something in particular that really troubles you, air your concerns; you might even get your Christian friends thinking about something they may not have considered before. It could be as simple as “I’m having some trouble taking the Noah’s Ark story literally,” or you could incorporate the hypothetical person from #4 and explain that this person wanted your take on a response to the problem of evil, and you’d like to know their thoughts, too.

6. Be sneaky

I know this doesn’t sound like good advice, but hear me out. I spent years of my life living like Lane Kim from Gilmore Girls, and I want to share some of my wisdom with you.

What it felt like to hide all my atheist books from everyone I knew.

Judging from the name of my blog, you can probably tell that I didn’t wait until I was out of the closet before I started making myself a part of the online atheist community. I think the easiest way is to have an anonymous atheist blog, Twitter account, or Reddit account, but people have managed to make atheist YouTube videos without exposing their identities as well. I also started collecting and reading atheist books from inside the closet; I made sure to purchase hardcover books and swap out the covers from other books so no one would know I was reading The God Delusion. My family bought all of their books from Amazon, so I started buying books from Thriftbooks (which is cheaper anyways).

7. Don’t take it personally

If the wrong person does end up finding out that you’re an atheist before they were meant to, they might not react well. They might tell you you’re going to hell, or you’re doing something wrong, or that you’re hateful of their religion. But I mean it—it’s not you, it’s them. Almost every time I have come out to someone, I’ve found that they become very defensive, and that they see your atheism as an attack on their faith. It seems to me that especially if this person has never (knowingly) met an atheist, they’re not at all comfortable knowing that someone could live a perfectly happy life without their god. It makes them second-guess themselves, and they will take out this doubt on you. And I know how much easier it is to read what I’m telling you than it is to put it into practice and not take things to heart, but it’s the truth. You can be the bigger person no matter what people think of you.

I sincerely hope that at least one of these pieces of advice has helped any of my younger readers. As always, feel free to add suggestions in the comments, or email me to talk in private!

15 thoughts on “7 Tips for Closeted Atheist Teenagers

  • Good advice. Especially the one about weighing up your options. I would also add, practice telling some non-Christian friends or family first. It will feel like a breath of fresh air and help you to express yourself more. Hopefully you will then be able to explain your beliefs better when the time comes to ‘come out’. This advice won’t do for everyone though, you don’t want to tell someone if they’re going to tell your Christian friends/family. You must come out to them yourself when ready. For me, the first person I came out to was my dad. He had been ex Christian for years so it was no big deal.

    Liked by 2 people

  • There’s several other pieces of advice I’d add.

    Have an ally. If there’s someone in your family that’s already an un-believer, spend some time talking with them, and seeing if they will assist you. Having a relative who has your back may be helpful. If there’s no family member like that, perhaps there’s a close family friend that could help.
    Give the gift of time. This is an extension of the the “drop hints” advice above. Many people take quite a while to deconvert. Sometimes it takes people years to go from belief to full non-belief. And sometimes more years until they are comfortable with identifying themselves as a non-believer. Yet, when you just tell your family “Hey, I’m an atheist now!” you are expecting them to be able to accept it immediately. If you can reveal a small part of your questioning, a piece at a time, then they can get used to it, and see that you are still the same person that you were.
    Be in control of the conversation when you can. If possible, have these conversations when you want to have them, not when your family tries to corner you into them. If you can figure out how to deflect intrusive questions, it’s OK to do that. If they try to start a huge argument with you, it’s OK to refuse to engage in those arguments.

    (Book Recommendation: “Coming Out Atheist” by Greta Christina. She’s way more eloquent on this topic than I am.)

    Liked by 3 people

  • they see your atheism as an attack on their faith.

    This statement is sooo true … and so hard to understand. WHY would any believer feel “threatened” simply because another person didn’t believe in their god? Perhaps it’s because they know, deep down in their hearts, that it’s pretty much all make-believe and thus, the ammunition to defend lacks any real fire power.

    Anyway, great suggestions!

    Liked by 2 people

  • Outstanding advice CA. I hope many read and take heed. Social ostracizing for simply being different too often keeps those closet-doors shut or locked. It is VERY unhealthy mentally and emotionally if it forced inward for too long. From my years and clinical background (inpatient & outpatient) in Psych/A&D rehab I’ve seen way too many horrible, painful consequences when these youth and young adults feel overly trapped.

    It’s great that you are here and available! ❤

    Liked by 1 person

  • I did not have much problem with this. I find the whole closet and coming out drama fascinating. We are so ‘all about freedom’ until one of us begins to think a bit more freely. While I support coming out, one must be very careful, as you said. Good presentation of alternative activities. We should have ‘coming out’ parties.

    Liked by 2 people

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s